Ai Karamba!!!

I guess nobody apart from Deepak G and Swaroop Rao know the rough literal translation of "Ai Karamba", so the rest of you please think of this is just another exclamation of sorts.

Attended what might probably be the last FYI quiz. The two quizzes held there were very good if one could get over the irritation of going so far... all the way to Indranagar.
The quizzes was more entertaining than informative and would have got a definite "A" or even an "X" rating by the censure board if it was a film. What else will they do if the quiz expects you to know how the braille or 3D version of Playboy looks? And that is only the tip of the iceberg.

Came to the sudden realization yesterday that the moment of truth is just a couple of days away. Still have to do a bit of research about which colleges are good and most importantly what course I should take. Doing nothing seems to take away most of the time nowadays, which is kind of ironic because that is exactly what we should not be doing. It was easy for Frost to choose from 2 roads. He's lucky he never wrote the CET and had so many roads to choose from.

I have still not gotten over the stupid habit of not acting earlier and then regretting later. A million thoughts of "If only I had been more serious..." have been giving me some sleepless nights. Guess I have not earned the right to sleep peacefully. Its amazing how all the supposedly age-old-stuff we mocked a few months earlier seem to be grinning maniacally at us. Our elders are right. There is no substitute to hard work. There is no luck in this world and you never get anything that you don't deserve (Note: all this doesn't apply if you are Siddharth Mallya). I kept thinking, coaxed by many a speech from influential speakers that today's demand is for "smart workers" and not "hard workers". What all of them conveniently failed to say is that average guys like us cannot be smart without our share of hard work. The reason is so absurdly simple ( it strikes me now! Ai Karamba!) for a person to be smart, he needs quite a lot of knowledge which cannot be got by birth. He has to slog, learn and then reap the benefits. Farming in one's own backyard is much more reliable than expecting the farm to come magically in front of you, completely laden with ripe produce, when you need to harvest. The produce appears if and only if there has been some ploughing, some labournig, some seeds, some fertilizers and lots of more hard work.

How can Krishna, in the Bhagavad Gita, ask us not to expect returns on our hard work? Whatever we do in life is in always in expectation of favorable results. Isn't it?
And when there are a series of results that don't go your way, then the only logical interpretation is that there is something wrong with ourselves. Unfortunately this realization is coming very very late.

But then, there is always a new beginning to look forward to. Something that, unfortunately, I will not be able to go to without any regrets. Without any compromises. Without holding my head high.

Ai Karamba! Yes.. it hurts.